Sleepless Nights

Do you ever get those times where you're thinking about everything, but nothing at the same time? My mind is just wandering everywhere, jumping from thought to thought, but maybe these thoughts are just passing by so quickly that I can't grasp onto any of them tightly.

I almost forgot what it's like to be so happy that you really can't stop smiling. I really wish that this hope will evolve into a lasting happiness. God, I miss you so much, but I think recently I've conditioned myself to not think about you because it hurts so much that I can't bear it. Sadly, this is like I'm running away from my problems, but I think it's the only way I can keep myself sane anymore.


Ooo.

one step from insanity.

I Love Working Out

I don't know how much more of this I can take.

//edit:

OKAY. so that ^ was before I went to work out. I always tell people this, but working out really is the solution to everything. If you have a problem and think about it while working out, your mind will be so much clearer and you'll understand things so much better and reach a better solution. Also, it always makes you feel better and more awake and alive. It's so refreshing and seriously, it's just such a great mood-lifter. I'm so glad that no matter what, I'll always be able to exercise in some way; it really does make everything better.

I've been extremely emotional lately, and I hope to God that I'm getting my period soon because I can't stand feeling so emotional like this if I wasn't PMS-ing. Actually, a lot of times when I'm moody and I get my period soon after, I feel really relieved because I realize that all my angst was just from PMS. I think I'm the only girl that ever gets happy about getting her period. Anyway, I also realized [while working out today :)] that maybe I'm so moody because of the side effects of this medication I took a little while back. Perhaps.

In any case, I really gotta remember to stop worrying so much and just be calm, be calm, be calm and breathe. I need to keep in mind everything that's good in my life and that I should just live uninhibitedly and be happy.