Stop and Stare

I've wanted to write this post for a while, but I never got around to it. Every so often when I walk down the stairs of Great Hall to go back to my apartment, I stand at the top of the stairs and stare at the Great Hall patio across from me. I once sat there and watched the sun set, and it was the most relaxed I've felt in a very long time. It's not really that high up, I wish it were higher, but it's just nice to stop and stare at the world for a while.


Ooo.

Insomnia

This insomnia thing is getting a bit too ridiculous.
So what now. What do I do now?


Ooo.

maybe it was better when i was ignorant


Ooo.

Acceptance

It came quite a shock to me when I heard that Acceptance broke up today. I only knew one of their songs, but this song means a lot to me.

Acceptance- So Contagious

Oh no, this couldn't be more unexpected
And I can tell that I've been moving in so slow
Don't let it throw you off too far
Cause I'll be running right behind you

Could this be out of line? (Could this be out of line?)
To say you're the only one breaking me down like this
You're the only one I would take a shot on
Keep me hanging on so contagiously

Oohhh, when I'm around you I'm predictable
Cause I believe in loving you with first sight
I know it's crazy but I'm hoping to..
To take a hold of you

Could this be out of line? (Could this be out of line?)
To say you're the only one breaking me down like this
You're the only one I would take a shot on
Keep me hanging on so contagiously

Oh you're everything I'm wanting
Come to think of it, I'm aching
On account of my transgression..
Will you welcome this confession?

Could this be out of line? (Could this be out of line?)
To say you're the only one breaking me down like this
You're the only one I would take a shot on
Keep me hanging on so contagiously

Could this be out of line? (Could this be out of line?)
To say you're the only one breaking me down like this
You're the only one I would take a shot on
Keep me hanging on so contagiously


Ooo.

Perfect Two ♥

[Verse 1:]
You can be the peanut butter to my jelly
You can be the butterflies I feel in my belly
You can be the captain and I can be your first mate
You can be the chills that I feel on our first date

You can be the hero and I can be your side kick
You can be the tear that I cry if we ever split
You can be the rain from the cloud when it's stormin'
Or you can be the sun when it shines in the mornin'

[B-Sec:]
Don't know if I could ever be
Without you cause boy you complete me
And in time I know that we'll both see
That we're all we need

Cause your the apple to my pie
You're the straw to my berry
You're the smoke to my high
And you're the one I wanna marry

[Hook:]
Cause you are the one for me (for me)
And I'm the one for you for you (for you)
You take the both of us (of us)
And we're the perfect two

We're the perfect two
We're the perfect two
Baby me and you
We're the perfect two

[Verse 2:]
You can be the prince and I can be your princess
You can be the sweet tooth I can be the dentist
You can be the shoes and I can be the laces
You can be the heart that I spill on the pages

You can be the vodka and I can be the chaser
You can be the pencil and I can be the paper
You can be as cold as the winter weather
But I don't care as long as we're together

[B-Sec:]
Don't know if I could ever be
Without you cause boy you complete me
And in time I know that we'll both see
That we're all we need

Cause you're the apple to my pie
You're the straw to my berry
You're the smoke to my high
And you're the one I wanna marry

[Hook:]
Cause your the one for me (for me)
And I'm the one for you (for you)
You take the both of us (of us)
And we're the perfect two

We're the perfect two
We're the perfect two
Baby me and you
We're the perfect two

[Bridge:]
You know that I'll never doubt ya
And you know that I think about ya
And you know I can't live without ya

I love the way that you smile
And maybe in just a while
I can see me walk down the aisle

[B-Sec 1/2:]
Cause you're the apple to my pie
You're the straw to my berry
You're the smoke to my high
And you're the one I wanna marry

[Hook:]
Cause your the one for me (for me)
And I'm the one for you (for you)
You take the both of us (of us)
And we're the perfect two

We're the perfect two
We're the perfect two
Baby me and you
We're the perfect two


Ooo.

Optimism

Ooo.

Hot Dogs and Spaghetti

My mom used to cook us a lot of weird/healthy foods. She always tried to make things healthy, but she didn't know what ingredients went together well and often substituted weird things in [replacing the chicken in chicken noodle soup with fish...]. On certain days, she would make us something we like and we'd get so excited because it was something so out of the ordinary. One of our favorites was spaghetti, and she would put cut up pieces of hot dogs in it because she knew we liked it. I think it's cute.


Ooo.

Frustration

God, I'm just so angry at the world right now, I just want to scream and yell at everyone. I can't even remember the time I've been so upset or mad at someone. I realized that I've never yelled at anyone other than my family. At times like these, I always want to yell at those who've made me upset and just rant about how much they hurt me. But no, I always just bottle it up and tell people something stupid like "I'm sick" just so I can run away and explode internally. I keep on shouting in my head, "You can't do this to me! You can't treat me this way. Life seriously cannot suck this much." But no one ever knows and all I've got is this stupid little blog to talk to.


Ooo.

Rationality

Ever since I was young, my mom would always say that I never listen to people. I guess I have always been kinda rebellious that way, I never liked to listen to what people told me to do and I would just ignore whatever they said and keep doing my own thing. I thought that it was just a kid thing, but I'm still very much like that. I never listen to people's advice despite complaining about it. But honestly, I listen to myself so well, and I can be so rational at times except most of the time I'm not. In that somewhat rare moment in which I think clearly, I can calm myself so well and reason out my angst. I wish I had more moments like these because lately my emotions have been driving me nuts and I'm not used to being so sensitive all the time.


Ooo.

Sleepless Nights

Do you ever get those times where you're thinking about everything, but nothing at the same time? My mind is just wandering everywhere, jumping from thought to thought, but maybe these thoughts are just passing by so quickly that I can't grasp onto any of them tightly.

I almost forgot what it's like to be so happy that you really can't stop smiling. I really wish that this hope will evolve into a lasting happiness. God, I miss you so much, but I think recently I've conditioned myself to not think about you because it hurts so much that I can't bear it. Sadly, this is like I'm running away from my problems, but I think it's the only way I can keep myself sane anymore.


Ooo.

one step from insanity.

I Love Working Out

I don't know how much more of this I can take.

//edit:

OKAY. so that ^ was before I went to work out. I always tell people this, but working out really is the solution to everything. If you have a problem and think about it while working out, your mind will be so much clearer and you'll understand things so much better and reach a better solution. Also, it always makes you feel better and more awake and alive. It's so refreshing and seriously, it's just such a great mood-lifter. I'm so glad that no matter what, I'll always be able to exercise in some way; it really does make everything better.

I've been extremely emotional lately, and I hope to God that I'm getting my period soon because I can't stand feeling so emotional like this if I wasn't PMS-ing. Actually, a lot of times when I'm moody and I get my period soon after, I feel really relieved because I realize that all my angst was just from PMS. I think I'm the only girl that ever gets happy about getting her period. Anyway, I also realized [while working out today :)] that maybe I'm so moody because of the side effects of this medication I took a little while back. Perhaps.

In any case, I really gotta remember to stop worrying so much and just be calm, be calm, be calm and breathe. I need to keep in mind everything that's good in my life and that I should just live uninhibitedly and be happy.

Globus Hystericus

"Globus Hystericus usually manifests itself as a feeling of tightness in the throat, often, but not always, causing a feeling as if you have something stuck in your throat.

If you experience Globus Hystericus regularly, even when no 'real' threat is present, it possibly means that you suffer from inappropriate anxiety levels also called anxiety disorder."

Wow, okay everything totally makes sense now. I get this feeling every so often, and tonight, it's been so bad that I can't sleep. And all along, I thought I was just crazy.

Lately, it feels like I'm kind of an empty shell. I feel like I'm drained of my emotions because I had used so much of them so quickly. I feel like I'm on the brink of snapping into a nervous breakdown, and even a small stimuli can set me off. I definitely feel like it originated from feeling too burnt out from school, although that is not the primary reason it persists. I really need a break from academia; and my "social life" isn't helping much either. In fact, my social life is what is prolonging all this stress. A traumatic event usually hits me hard at first, but it fades quickly. The initial shock really impacts me, so I feel like I'm still in that phase right now.

I know that I'll always be okay; there is no doubt about that. But sometimes I wish that when I say I'll be okay, you would see that I just need some comforting sometimes.

Home Sweet Apartment

I came back to SD today. When I got into my apartment, it felt nostalgic and home-y although I haven't stayed there long at all; only a month or so. Still though, it felt even more welcoming when Sharon, Katasha, and I played this Pictionary game online. Hilarious and entertaining, btw. I think my sentences/phrases are really choppy right now, and I'm not sure. Maybe it's because my thoughts and all frazzled. Frazzled? Who says frazzled....? Anyway... back to the subject, it was just a very warm and welcoming feeling to spend time and laugh with apartment mates. It made me re-think about I-House. I wondered if this is another one of those things where I really want it and I continue to want it although I don't know why I do anymore. I don't know if that made sense. Anyway, I made cookies later and gave some to Sharon. She happily replied, "I love being your roommate!" Although it made me feel happy for the initial second, I immediately felt guilty and somewhat sad and regretful about moving out.

Mannnn, I feel so angst-y lately. I don't really know why; it's similar to the feeling I had last, last Spring Quarter when I got burnt out from De Anza. Although it's weird because I knowingly forced myself into this burnt-outness. I don't even think I really am burnt out, but maybe I'm burnt out from life? I just feel like there's no excitement and I seriously have a lack of friends. This is so reminiscent of last fall when I went through a whole emo loner phase. There has got to be more to my life than just school; I know after I messed up in high school, I dedicated a lot to academics, but maybe too much. I don't feel like I have much left and I need some stimulation in my life to feel like I'm really alive. I want to go on an adventure.

Anyway, I don't know if this is on a brighter note or note. But I finally set my mind to do something I've wanted to for a long time. Since I'm running on this adrenaline to act upon it, I hope the feeling doesn't wear off anytime soon. I can see this feeling slipping quick if I don't do something about it ASAP, because I rarely have the guts to confront people. I don't want to keep myself waiting anymore; but more importantly, I don't want to keep anyone else waiting anymore.

I can't see!

I lost my glasses during finals week of Spring Quarter, and I seriously can't survive without them. I can't see the board at ALL if I don't wear my glasses, which is weird because my eyesight really isn't that bad at all [around 100 or less]. But yeah, even at home, sometimes the TV is blurry although I'm not that far away either. Gahh where are my grasses? :[

On a completely different note, I really like to make friends haha. Sometimes I meet people that I really wanna be friends with; it almost seems like I have a crush on them because I wanna talk to them and hang out with them although I don't even know them that well. Am I really weird for that??

p.s. How I Met Your Mother is SO GOOD!!!! I've been having "itchings" to watch it, haha.

Birthday

I don't think I've ever dreaded my birthday before, so I'm not sure why I do this time. In fact, I really wish the days would just skip over my birthday. Maybe it's because it reminds me of how young I am [compared to everyone else, at least] or how I'm not 21. If I could get 22+ on DATs for my birthday, that would be a different story. Ah well, I guess it doesn't really matter. Age is but a number anyway. I'm sure I'll still act like I'm 12 when I'm 50, just like my silly mom.

Anyway, DATs are in 2 days. I better own this shizz; wasted so much of my life studying for it. Then again, my whole life is wasted studying anyway. I always daydream about doing really well on this test so I actually have a chance of getting into dental school, butttttt seeing as how I'm a terrible test-taker, that is probably not going to happen. Still though, gotta study while I can. Adiossss world, until Friday!


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Angel v.s. Devil

Sometimes I wish I had the courage to do the things I want to do or say I'll do. I don't know why I do this, but even when I am fully aware I'm making the wrong decision, I'll still do it despite my conscious telling me it's not what I want. I'll make sure that I carry out the mission, even though it's not what I feel is right. My brain is just stubborn and acts without regard to what I feel. I think that's why I feel so conflicted all the time; because I can't govern between what I think and what I feel. It's like always having the devil on one shoulder and an angel on the other. I remember growing up always wanting to be someone who had the courage and decency to "do the right thing." But it really is so much harder. Seems like my morals are a bit out of place.

Kind of silly, but I remember thinking if I was a good/moral person or a bad person when I was a child, and I always thought that I was a good person. But when I thought that I could actually be a bad person instead, I became really sad, and I believe I even cried over that possibility.

Completely random post... but I suppose there is not much else to do at 6:30 AM. God, sleeping when the sun comes out is depressing.


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DATs

DAT studying is seriously driving me crazy right now. My scores have fluctuated, but in most cases, gone down. My past month have been filled with nothing but studying, and I have been completely lacking the play hard part in "work hard, play hard." I've been dying and itching to go out and do something fun, but after studying all day, I just go back home to study even more. This is also because a lot of people can't hang out or because of just my lack of friends in general. This has felt like just one [long] continuous cycle of non-stop studying. I just want a short break; just go have tons of fun for a few days and get back to work. Gahhhh, no more studying pleaseeeee :[ Or at least, let my scores go up so I don't feel like a total ratard.

Growing Old

I always try to keep a really busy lifestyle because I can't stand being bored. Which is why I don't mind spending hours everyday with my head in a textbook; as long as I'm doing something. I feel like I've somewhat isolated myself this summer. Of course, I needed to do so to study for my DATs, but it started to become more like I was subconsciously isolating myself from the world even when I didn't have to. I used to want to see my friends everyday, and now I actually choose to go home and sit there for hours doing nothing instead of calling people to see if they want to hang out (for most of the time). I feel like it's because I don't have anything interesting anymore to say since I spend my whole life studying, and I feel somewhat pressured to have to say something and try to entertain my friends.

The whole reason I completely changed my work habits after high school was because I remembered how terrible it felt to be rejected from something I really wanted (to go to UCSD) and how frustrated I felt because it was something I couldn't control. After that, I wanted to work hard to get what I wanted. I didn't mind dedicating my whole life to academics and achieving success because I wanted to be able to control my future, and earning people's respect is important to me (I had to deal with getting so much shit from everyone for going to CC).

I start placing academics before everything. I felt like it was all okay because it would all pay off in the end; but now I just feel alone. I feel like I pushed everyone away just to study, and that I forgot what it's like to have fun, what it's like to have close friends. I feel like this summer I've somewhat drifted from the usual people I'm close with. I remember seeing my sister work so hard in high school and thinking, "Man, she totally doesn't even know what fun is anymore. I would hate to have her life." Dammit, now I'm her. I pushed everything aside for the sake of succeeding, including my health. I really feel the effects of not eating well (bad habits I got from last year; no time to eat) and not sleeping well. I've never gotten so many headaches in such a short period, my body randomly aches and I've never felt my heart twinge so much.

Someone close to me kept telling me that I should stop wasting my life in a book. "You only have two lives, and the second one isn't nearly as fun." Maybe it's time to listen.


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Tainted Love

Haha, oh man, I heard "Tainted Love" on the radio today. The first thing that popped into my head is Ms. Cochrum [my high school bio teacher] jumping on the table and dancing while belting out "TAINTED LOVEEEEEEEEEE" hahaha. Brings back good memories. I really loved high school, but I was never close with my class. I jumped groups a lot, so I was much of a loner in the end. I don't even keep in touch with high school friends anymore [with the exception of one or two]. I guess that's why I get bored pretty easily when I come home. While everyone's reuniting with high school buddies, I just sometimes hang out with the few friends I do have left here. Even now, I don't find myself close to my "best friend" anymore; it's become more of just a label now. Oh well, I guess we all just grow up and drift apart eventually.

I also went to my elementary school to go swinging today. I used to walk there when I was in a bad mood and go swinging, but now I go just when I go on walks with my sister. I have always loved the swings, ever since I was a kid. It just feels so carefree and relaxing, and feeling the "whoosh" and wind whistling in your ear :)

Just as a random note... I once read an article that said to give thanks for the simple things in life every morning, and it'd give you a happier outlook on life. I do it every night before I sleep, but it really does make my life happier when I'm reminded of all the blessings I have [food, family, friends, shelter, education, etc...]. You should do it too! :)


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Homesick

I haven't felt this homesick since the first time I moved to SD. I feel homesick, like really home SICK. I don't feel like I have a place I can call home here, and I didn't realize how much I would miss my old apartment either. I miss having my own space and my roommates and the convenience and fun of it all. So many things in my life are so hectic right now and I just want it all to STOP so I can go home and curl up in my bed. I don't want to stay in SD anymore; I'm tired of having to work so hard and end up disappointing people. I hate it even more when there isn't anything I can do to fix it. I just want to go home NOW.


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Lacking Motivation

I never really regret anything I do; I make decisions and if it happens to be a bad one, I [complain a lot for a little bit] accept my mistake and move on. My lack of motivation this year has been one regret that has been bothering me for a while.

Had I been more motivated, I would have gotten in my PDS paperwork in time. I would have been able to have volunteered in clinic by now, and most importantly, I would have been able to go on Mercy [a humanitarian mission with the USNS] this summer. Every summer when I end up just taking summer classes instead of doing anything more worthwhile like internships, I keep saying that next year, I will improve. This has yet to happen; I am six weeks away from summer, and yet again, I will not be doing anything of significance. Dental school applications are creeping closer and closer, and I have nothing to show. My grades are not good, I have no experience, and I really need to start kicking it up. Going on the Mercy trip this summer would have been the most perfect opportunity for me to finally do something worthwhile with my time. Not only that, I especially wanted to go because one of my closest friends is leaving this year, and going on the ship with him would have been an extremely fun experience before we have to part.

I feel like I study so hard, but my grades are still so bad. I know I should change my methods of studying, but no matter what I try or how hard I work; I only come out average. Maybe it's the competitiveness in me that causes me to feel so negative every time I come out with a bad grade. I guess this is balanced out by my stubbornness/determination though. [I'd like to think of it as determination since it has a more positive connotation :]]

Ah, this is been a long rant, and in the end, I just have to accept what already has happened and move on. Typing this blog during metabolic class probably isn't the best start to improving my academic improvement. Back to lecture!


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Just like Good Ol' Times

What started off to be an extremely awkward conversation turned into a long and engaging conversation about random stuff. I've missed spending hours talking about nothing and everything.

Tomisu, if you don't come to UCSD, I'm going to chop off your balls and toss them into the ocean for the fishies to eat.

:]


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Cargidan Weather

Mann, I haven't updated this blog in a long time. Cardigan Weather is a song from Meg and Dia that I really like right now :) It really has nothing to do with anything going on in my life right now, but lately it's been so beautiful outside, it is like cardigan weather! Like, perfect weather for wearing cardigans? Okay, this made sense to me in my head. Anyway!

I went clubbing at Stingaree! It was super fun :) Daniel was underdressed so he couldn't get in, so we ended up wandering downtown SD for about an hour before we tried to go in again. In the meantime, we went bar hopping to about 7 different bars and I never got stopped. I'm so glad that my best friend looks exactly like me so I got in no problemoooo :) People tell me that when I go to 18+ clubs, that's not really clubbing, and now I totally know what they mean!! Haha, Stingaree was definitely awesome and I want to go agaiiiiin!

During finals week, I literally spent about 15-20 hours in CLICS everyday. It was somewhat tortuous, but also really fun at the same time. Since the whole school is practically crammed into that tiny little library, you can just get up and take a break at 4 A.M. and walk over to talk to friends. At least everyone else is suffering with you, right? I also took Adderall for the first time! Last quarter, Lynn gave me one but I was too scared to take it in case I ended up focusing on the wrong thing. It was pretty useful, I guess, but I don't want to become dependent on it, so I'll just try to stick to relying on my own will.

Despite practically selling my soul to the devil to study for ochem, I still managed to fail and get owned so badly. I literally accepted the fact that I wasn't going to pass the class and was prepared for the worst. By some miracle, I actually passed!!! Yeeeeeee. Barely though, so it's not much of an achievement.

Home home home homeeeeee! I love homeeee. Before I left for SD, I honestly thought that I would be the last person on Earth to ever miss home. All those years of having stressful fights and arguments with my family made me want to leave so badly. But you really don't appreciate having a home until you have to leave it. Thankfully, I've really started to settle into SD and I love both lives. Ahh, life is good :)

I have caterpillar eyebrows. :[ But not anymore! My sister always gets her eyebrows threaded, so I decided to try it for the first time; my eyebrows really can't be worse than they already are, right? So, eyebrow threading... AKA HELL ON EARTH. Dammit, those were the 10 most painful minutes of my life. I think my eyes are super sensitive to stuff going near it, which is why I never really wear make-up; and don't even get me started on contacts. My whole eyes were super red afterwards; although it really was successful! But still, this is why I rather be ugly than sacrifice comfort for beauty.


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...o!!< rawrihtm

Such strange and unexpected things happen in life.
Not that it's a bad thing though :)


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Shots shots shots shots shots shots!

This past Friday, Debby and I went to Ki Sushi for Happy Hour [gotta be Asian and hit up that 30% off]. We got seated at the bar, and this marine guy sitting next to Debby starts talking to us. We ended up talking for most of the meal and he offered us sake [we didn't take it though], so I offered him sushi in return. Later on, this guy sitting next to me is drinking sake bombs with the chef and trying to get him drunk, albeit being the one getting drunk instead. The chef gives this guy a sushi roll on the house and he offers it to us instead since he already had a large meal. We ended up talking a bit and before leaving, he gave me his business card and told me to contact him if I ever wanted to get sushi or if I wanted him to buy alcohol for us, haha.

I never really saw the appeal of going to bars, and I never really understood why people liked it so much. Gradually starting from the beginning of this quarter, after being unable to go to bars with a bunch of people and getting to spend more time with them, I started to understand why people enjoyed going to bars. Especially after this incident, it made me really wish that I was old enough to go to bars. It's just a chill environment; people talking to each other and meeting new people and just drinking and eating with strangers as though they've been your friends for a while. In short, I wish I was 21. Too bad I'm such a youngster :[


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Give me a piggyback ride!

I miss being piggybacked. It just feels so fun and carefree to have someone carry you around. I guess this thought originated since I hurt my feet recently. I have strange issues with humidity, and after coming back to SD, my feet cracked so badly that I now have deep cuts in my feet and occasionally bleed. I also accidentally kicked someone's elbow, so one foot is slightly swollen. I've been limping/shuffling/waddling everywhere, and it takes me about 25% longer to get anywhere. I haven't had anyone piggyback me for a while now, but I wish there was. It feels like there's someone there for you to lean on and depend on [literally and metaphorically].

Other thoughts:

I really love UCSD. Even a few years ago, every time I came to visit, I felt at home here and that I really belonged here. Despite complaining and bitching about UCSD all last quarter, I've come to realize that I really do not hate UCSD at all [Actually, I knew this all along; I just didn't want to say it]. I just wanted to have something to blame for losing khoa, and UCSD was the perfect scapegoat for it. It is always when I am walking alone late at night that I appreciate the beauty of UCSD and realize why I've come to love it so much in the first place.

Recently, I've been surrounded with guys who have at least one trait that bugs me about them. I think I have just become less tolerant of people or something. I really don't like guys who scream/spaz, complain all the time and don't do anything about it, or are weak [haha okay, this one is more of a turn-off rather than a dislike]; it's very pussy-like and extremely unattractive. On the bright side, I like guys who wear leather belts. I just really like the whole laid-back look; just a t-shirt, jeans, and belt looks nice.

Okay, it's second week and I'm already very behind. I've been slacking in my New Year's Resolutions [yes, I have been sticking to them!], so it's time to kick it up!


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Happy New Year!

Man, it's been a crazy year. It had so many ups and downs, and I'm just glad that we're onto a new year/decade now. Although I most likely won't reach these, but my New Year's Resolutions are as follows:

1) Spend less money. If you didn't know, I keep record of how much I spend every month and what I spend it on. This year's amount was significantly higher than 2008, so I need to keep my expenses to a control.

2) Get a job/internship. I'm already really behind in finding experience to buff up my resume. I need to get a job to help Resolution #1, and an internship to make myself sound useful to dental schools. Hopefully I will be able to do SMDEP or research over summer.

3) Lose 15 lbs. Over summer, I ate a lot. No like, a lot. I got a head start on my freshman 15 and ended up gaining 10 lbs, and it stuck with me. I need to start eating healthier again and get back into shape. I'm just a wee bit out of [original] shape.

4) Live a healthier lifestyle. As in no more sleeping at 5 A.M. [I‘ll try] and no more junk food. Cookies for breakfast and chocolate for dinner probably isn’t the best diet.

5) Maintain good relationships with everyone. I tend to be a relationship-ruiner, and I just hope that I'll be able to stay on good terms with all those I am close with.

6) Do 1 pull-up. I'm weak; this would be an amazing accomplishment for me.

Thank god I had this winter break; everything [with the exception of one underlying problem] fell nicely back into place and many problems have been solved. I’ve been burnt out since the end of winter quarter 2009 and it took me nearly 9 months to recover. I feel refreshed and ready for school, and I’ll definitely be working my ass off for that 4.0. Some relationships have been reestablished and I hope to keep them this way.


As for a flashback on the highlights of 2009...

1) New Year’s Kiss.

2)

*missing Janelle and Julia

Bio with Janelle, Frank/Dat Dam (Aman), Joan (Claw), Priyal (Dave), and Julia. Since our professor was COMPLETELY incompetent, we had to learn everything by ourselves. We had crazy study sessions and these were the days where I made 30-to-40-page study guides for each test.

3) Getting into UCSD. I really was not expecting to get in since I only had 5 classes worth of grades and my GPA was not the best. I didn’t even bother checking until Charles checked for me and posted on my facebook my acceptance letter, haha. Transferring in one year is definitely one of my biggest accomplishments and something I’m really proud of.

4) Roadtrip to SD.

5)

Coincidentally ran into Elijah at Safeway, so he came to join us on our weekly Jack in the Box Runs [see #6] :)

Chem with Tom and Elijah. We had Dr. Liu, FUNNIEST professor ever. I miss mass-printing and "free" candy in PSME and spending breaks together.

Some of Dr. Liu's infamous quotes...

"NoooOOOooo! *backs away*"

Dr. Liu: don't worry, if this doesn't count for your grade, then you'll be fine!
Class: but it does count for our grade...
Dr. Liu: oh, then too bad

"and then later you noticed that there are black spots on your skin and it's peeling off. then you go like 'oh. that's not water." On explaining lab safety.

6) Jack in the box runs on Thursdays. Including being locked in the bathroom, “swimming” in the toilet, pointing out the pterophyta, and getting endless refills on soda.

7)
New Year’s Eve dinner. I was really surprised that this dinner was so successful. When I was younger, my family used to always have hot pot on New Year’s Eve, but we stopped since about 10 years ago. This year, my mom randomly decided to have hot pot again. I usually never have dinner with my family, but it was a good get together with family and friends.


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