Guys and Girls

Okay, so I never did finish that last post. Looking at the past few blog posts, I've been extremely bitter and butt-hurt. I've mostly gotten over that phase now, so I'll spare y'all the overdramatic-ness.

Personally, I've always thought it was a lot easier to get along with guys. I think I share a lot more interests as guys do, and they're generally more chill and can take a joke. However, I've realized that although I've had many close friendships with guys, these guys never stay my friends for long. Eventually, they just all drift out of my life. Sadly, this happens so much that I'm starting to get used to it; I no longer expect my friendships to last. This is probably another reason why I don't trust anyone, because no one's really there for you. They're all just going to leave in the end.

^ Okay, that sounded really negative, but it's really not as bad as it seems. I'm just more independent and keep to myself.

I suppose in the past year, I've lost a lot of important friendships. One in particular is one that I still can't stop thinking about every day. We were so close last year, and we both said we would always be good friends, but I don't know why things just fell apart.

I've always really treasured my friendships and held them in high regard, but am I ignorant for doing so? It seems like no one else cares about staying friends or fights for a friendship as much. Maybe it's silly of me to try to hang onto things in my life so much; maybe I should just learn to let go instead.


Ooo.